#so scary. such terrifying thing to happen.

[piratecaptainscaptainpirates]

Today was hard. It was really scary, and the future feels uncertain. I had a hard talk with my sister, who had been planning to try for a baby with her husband this year, and who has decided to wait even though she's ready and excited to be a mom because even a wanted pregnancy is too risky right now. Our youngest sister was just old enough to vote for the first time in this election, and is terrified of the world she's coming into as a young Black Jewish woman. I'm scared for them, and for me, and for all of us who are in danger right now. It's scary to know that, no matter how hard today was, we're probably going to be in a much worse place as a nation a year from now. Things are going to get much worse.

But you know what else?

Today, my sister and I still laughed a lot.

When I remember the absolute fear at knowing that I need to get my passport with a correct gender marker before January, I'll also remember the people who helped me when I asked for help.

Both of the classes I taught today (I'm a phd student and mostly teach incoming Freshmen) became "what happens now?" conversations. There was a lot of sadness today, but I was also very impressed by how many of my students essentially told me they're not willing to go down without a fight. Lots of hope, too.

I was able to work on the next chapter of my fic, even though I didn't really feel like it, and making art still made me feel better. I made plans with friends who have been too busy for a while. I took my dog on a long walk, and he was still happy and soft when I petted him and still needs me around.

It feels somehow like this day has lasted forever. And I'm scared for the future. I can't help but see the world differently today, just knowing how many people voted for this, who either were in favor of or just didn't care about the rampant racism and hatred. But I'm still here, and so are you, and this is going to be fucking hard but it won't all be hard. Take your joy where you can, and do it out of spite if you have to, but do it. Stay alive to see the other side of this, yes, but also don't let it keep you from living.

[kaycode1999]

This is heavy but…

I feel the need to say please don’t harm yourself because of this. I am gutted and terrified right now just like you, and I’m not gonna lie we have a right to feel that way. Things look- really fucking dark. But there is always hope, and always a reason to keep fighting and keep living. It’s scary, and it may be hard for a while but you will be ok- we will be ok. Find comfort in your safety net and the things you enjoy right now and feel your feelings. Or create and nurture a safety net and/or hobbies or just things you enjoy doing

If it helps to be petty- hell, be petty. Stay here to spite every single law maker who tries to take your rights away, and find comfort in the fact that your existence lives rent free in their minds and keeps them up at night. There’s nothing more they’d like than to see the marginalized and liberal voters beaten down right now. They hate to see anyone who isn’t Cis-Het Christian conservative living happy lives, so live long enough to show them that!

It might feel helpless now, but I promise you WILL get to a place where you are living a happy fulfilling life if you aren’t already and despite whatever happens. And you deserve it!

If it helps to make a plan; whether it be fleeing the country for your safety *if you have the resources of course*, taking extra precautions, etc. whatever that looks like- start doing that once you’ve allowed yourself to grieve the situation.

I believe the best thing we can do right now is not give up. I know it’s hard, believe me. But the best thing we can do is to keep fighting, keep making our voices heard *as safety allows of course*, and keep educating ourselves as much as possible especially about resources and options to keep ourselves safe

As Steve Harvey said *apparently he might have been quoting Winston Churchill but the message is still a good one*

“ If you're going through hell, keep going.

Why would you stop IN hell?”

We might be in hell right now, and presumably for the next 4 years. But let’s fight and do what we can to get through it and get OUT of that hell and make things better!

Stay here, keep yourself safe, and we will get through this!

* I will be posting links to resources if I find/see them*

[drowzyscatterbrain]

I have many fears.

but currently, one of my greatest fears is having the most wonderful and sweet dreams of being lovey dovey with sans...

and forgetting it upon waking up.

[candyswirls]

Imagine:

Space marines having cuddle piles because they are experiencing lots of emotions but can’t decipher them and have trouble feeling but being held and holding someone else is comforting and feels nice and makes them feel better.

Holding and cuddling with the squad because you barely made it out alive and you’re so thankful they all survived.

Your squad nestled in with one another over the loss of a brother. It hurts but you share the pain together.

All but you from your squad died and you’ve been added to another. That new squad having a cuddle pile to not only welcome you but to give you comfort while you mourn the loss.

Young neophytes being terrified because holy crap this is really hard and scary. So many surgeries and trials. What if you don’t make it? You’re so scared and you miss your home and everything is strange but you can’t show weakness otherwise you’ll get kicked out. So scouts who know exactly how their younger brothers are feeling come and hold them, assuring them it will be alright as they stroke their hair.

Marines having endured seeing horrors of the warp, being shaken and unsure how to cope. Telling their Chaplain how they feel and unsure how they can move on Their chaplain, knowing the stress and how it’s just going to take time embraces them. Because what the marine needs right now is comfort and reassurance.

Marines being off kilter and disoriented from the Rubicon Primaris surgery being held by their apothecaries to help ground them.

Primaris marines cuddling with each other because they get one another and there’s still some distance between them and the first born.

First born and Primaris marines in a pile to cuddle and show that they are one as battle brothers.

Guilliman being so exhausted and overwhelmed from everything he lays on the floor to try and get some relief from being stuck in the armor of fate. Sooner or later his sons approach him to ensure he’s okay and sit with him. The next thing he knows, there’s a pile of them on top of him as he holds them close. Everything is so strange and awful in the imperium. He’s lost everything and recognizes nothing. But at the very least he has his sons. He may not know then as well and they are quite different and dull but by the golden throne; they’re his sons and they’re here and he’s just so grateful.

Lion El’Johnson sitting on the ground, holding the Fallen/Risen. Them laying on him as he holds them and runs his fingers through hair. Showing them he cares. He will not rule over them but they can follow him. They’ve been through so much. Deceived, tossed through time, mutated by the warp, and hunted down. They’re tired and weary. They struggle with trust. He will be there for them.

The clone of Fulgrim after escaping and finding some of his sons who are willing to follow him just has to embrace them, even if only for a moment. So much has happened. They blindly followed their primarch into corruption and heresy. They were just doing what they were told. They’re so willing to follow him. Even if this won’t work. But they’re willing to follow him. They believe in him, so he holds them if only for a brief moment.

You’re a tool of war with the emotional maturity of a child? You WANT to be held like a baby. No, you NEED to be held like a baby and feel safe and loved.

(Lol I’ve projected my own feelings into this because being held by someone who loves you is so freaking nice and comforting especially after being touch starved and angry at everyone close to you. They all deserve hugs and so do you!)

Space marine cuddle pile to deal with the horrors of war

[dawnthefluffyduck]

Crazy issues that come up when a character is written a little too well

[dummerjan]

one day my anxiety is going to kill me

[mikashisus]

hi guys im not dead in a ditch but i definitely will be after how that election turned out…

um anyways. expect part 2 for that kinich oneshot in maybe *checks calendar* 1-2 week’s time depending on my current pacing :’)

also started working on the rough draft for TATT chapter 2 part 2, so hopefully i can have at least half of it done by thanksgiving 🥲👍

[lottieurl]

really really need to get back on mood stabilizers

[orcelito]

My druid has "fuckboy" written all over her

[hecksupremechips]

Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

[natjennie]

number one horror game experience is running for your life in fear and then getting somewhere and going "okay, I'm safe here" and then a monster steps into view instantly.

[wittyworm]

if you dont believe in spirituality and clairvoyance and all that just skippp

so i know it sounds crazy, but i already told my therapist, so idc anymore but does anyone know ANYTHING about mediums. or anyone to contact to help me figure this out. ive been going through a lot the past year but the one i couldnt talk about that was bothering me the most was that i seem to have some sort of clairvoyant.. ability?? that i have no control over. its just as if the universe wills that i know random things that will occur and they happen.

even my family is noticing that it isnt just me making shit up

[another-clive-blog]

Short extract of that one WIP I've been working on !

TW are mention of death/dead bodies, mention of blood and uh I genuinely don't have the word but like. Disturbing way of thinking

It's 1 am and I have a big test tomorrow so I'm just going to post the cancel fic tonight and hopefully I'll be back to my usual posts tomorrow ! Anon if you recognize your ask expect the full thing in like two days unless I triggered myself too much lol

[bluesidedown]

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[snootlestheangel]

Drowning out my feelings with Dr. Pepper, falling back in love with Silence is Golden But Consequences Are Red, and thoughts of Mother Hen Wolf Shifter!Ghost

*rant in the tags if y'all want*

[famewolf]

I'm ready to be 30 tbh

I kept thinking I would want to hang onto my late 20s as much as possible; that being in my 30s would be something scary and hard

but getting older has only gotten easier instead. I am more sure about myself. about what I want and who I am and what makes me happy. sure, there is plenty of difficulty, but now I have experience to fall back on when the going gets tough. now I look forward to the next year, wondering what thing I will reclaim from my lost younger years that I didn't get to fully live in.

my 20s are almost done, and I never thought I'd say it, but I'm looking forward to it